Showing posts with label messages from within.... Show all posts
Showing posts with label messages from within.... Show all posts
October 30, 2008
It's THE BRAT unlike BEFORE...
Magiisang taon na noong huli akong ngsulat para sa account ko dito sa blogspot...
maraming ngyari... hindi na ako ang Ericang ngsusulat dito noon...
maraming nagbago... hindi na issue ngaun sakin ang mga issueng ngpapiyak sakin noon...
maraming nawala... hindi ko na nararamdamn ang sakit na bitbit ko noon nung ngsimula ako dito...
maraming pumalit... hindi na magulo ang buhay ko, di tulad dati...
maraming natutunan... hindi na umiikot ang buhay ko para kayninoman...
umiikot na ito para sakin...
kung ilalahad ko dito ang laht ng ngyari sakin sa nagdaang labing-isang buwan... di ko magagawa...
dahil mayroong mga naganp na pinili ko ng kalimutan...
iba na ko ngaun, mas matapang, mas maraming dunong, mas matatag...
mas tahimik ang buhay, mas walang iniisip... dhil di na ako nasasaktan...
aaminin ko, inumpisahan ko itong blog na ito sa gitna ng pangungulila ko ng karamay sa aking mga kalungkutan... gusto ko kc ng may mapgsasabihan... ayokong itago ang lahat, nakakbaliw! nakakapraning... mhirap na...
ngunit natapos na rin sa wakas ang kabanata ng buhay kong iyon... matagal nrin itong natapos... mga ilng buwan na...
at nang natapos iyon, unti-unti kong binuo ulit ang buhay ko, dahan-dahan...
mahirap, dhil nagkakakalaskalas ang mga piraso nito sa karimlan... nhirapan akong buuin ito, pwo nagwa ko naman... salamat sa Dyos...
iba na ako ngaun, tulog na ang kalahati ng pagkatao ko...
di ito masama, dhil sa ganitong paraan, tahimik na akong nabubuhay sa mundong ayaw prin akong tigilan... mga peste.. andaming peste...
iba na akong ngaun... masaya na ako... khit na alam ko, na ang naramdamn ko dati ay kaligayahan... msaya na ako ngaun... at mas sasaya pa ako... malapit na..
at kasabay ng pagbalik ko dito sa blogspot ay pagpalit ng kulay ng tema ng blog ko...
nangangahulugan na, pinalalaya ko na lht ng pinanghahwakan ko dati ng mhgpit...
dahil malaya na ako...
malaya na....
October 26, 2007
no regrets. no qualms. no nothing.
hoorah! im back...and armed! :D
a month had passed, my last entry was about not giving up while going through hell... well guys, guess wat.. those times were tough, but im here... writing... i mean typing... hehe.
so much for that, masaya ako sa naging kinalbasan ng play namin, ng ONAKULEOM... masaya ako kc once again natalo ko ang sarili ko... kala ko hindi matatpos ung storya... kala ko hindi un sasapat... salamat kay Mart,, ang partner ko sa pagsusulat...kc kung wala xa... wala akong motivation, wala akong kasamang mgbrainstorm, wala akong kakampi at wala rin akong kaaway... the script went through alot... sobra! pero syempre, salamat kay Yahweh kc he gave me the ryt ideas at the ryt time... para sa akin, isa ito sa mga achievements ko... kc i wont deny na summer plang pinangarap ko nang magsulat ng isang play na gagamitin sa drama fest... hihi..
but then again, nung panahon na ng pilian... sadly, things turned out bad for me... kc i got sick and all... then i let go... inisip ko na kung hindi nakatadhana para sakin... hindi mangyyri... but in the end it happened... against everything, nangyari itoh... sa tulong ng mga taong naniniwala sa kakayahan kong magsulat at syempre kay Yahweh.. :D
i know i never got to say how grateful i am to my classmates.... thats why... i wanna say thank you now... sa mga naniwala sakin at pati narin sa mga nagduda... kc after everything, i know i did my best...
no regrets. no qualms. no nothing... kya thank you! :)
im not working na pla ulit... kc pinili ko ung play... kc i have to choose between work or studies... it may sound so simple. but it wasnt. the real deal was... i had to choose between my duty or my passion...
i chose my passion.
i chose wat will make me happy.
so...
i chose to write. period.
no regrets. no qualms. no explanations. no nothing.
and so now im back to my old life... back to prepping up and dont forget make-up! back to senseless but laughter-packed tete-a-tetes... and of course... back to studying!
so now, im again a regular college student minus the attitude! hahaha!
these days, i may not have the luxury of spending too much, always in a tight budget like it used too... less starbucks. less gimicks. less fine dining. but not less fun! i know ive made the right decision and though things at home are a bit rough... i know... just like i use to say... i know everything will be okay... Yahweh wont desert me. *wink*
again, no regrets. no qualms. no nothing.
a month had passed, my last entry was about not giving up while going through hell... well guys, guess wat.. those times were tough, but im here... writing... i mean typing... hehe.
so much for that, masaya ako sa naging kinalbasan ng play namin, ng ONAKULEOM... masaya ako kc once again natalo ko ang sarili ko... kala ko hindi matatpos ung storya... kala ko hindi un sasapat... salamat kay Mart,, ang partner ko sa pagsusulat...kc kung wala xa... wala akong motivation, wala akong kasamang mgbrainstorm, wala akong kakampi at wala rin akong kaaway... the script went through alot... sobra! pero syempre, salamat kay Yahweh kc he gave me the ryt ideas at the ryt time... para sa akin, isa ito sa mga achievements ko... kc i wont deny na summer plang pinangarap ko nang magsulat ng isang play na gagamitin sa drama fest... hihi..
but then again, nung panahon na ng pilian... sadly, things turned out bad for me... kc i got sick and all... then i let go... inisip ko na kung hindi nakatadhana para sakin... hindi mangyyri... but in the end it happened... against everything, nangyari itoh... sa tulong ng mga taong naniniwala sa kakayahan kong magsulat at syempre kay Yahweh.. :D
i know i never got to say how grateful i am to my classmates.... thats why... i wanna say thank you now... sa mga naniwala sakin at pati narin sa mga nagduda... kc after everything, i know i did my best...
no regrets. no qualms. no nothing... kya thank you! :)
im not working na pla ulit... kc pinili ko ung play... kc i have to choose between work or studies... it may sound so simple. but it wasnt. the real deal was... i had to choose between my duty or my passion...
i chose my passion.
i chose wat will make me happy.
so...
i chose to write. period.
no regrets. no qualms. no explanations. no nothing.
and so now im back to my old life... back to prepping up and dont forget make-up! back to senseless but laughter-packed tete-a-tetes... and of course... back to studying!
so now, im again a regular college student minus the attitude! hahaha!
these days, i may not have the luxury of spending too much, always in a tight budget like it used too... less starbucks. less gimicks. less fine dining. but not less fun! i know ive made the right decision and though things at home are a bit rough... i know... just like i use to say... i know everything will be okay... Yahweh wont desert me. *wink*
again, no regrets. no qualms. no nothing.
September 21, 2007
losing grip..
matagl narin akong hindi nkpgsulat dito sa blog ko..mga ilang linggo nrin... hhmm...
the last time i wrote in here was wen i was physically dying... and now im writing to you agen dying... emotionally dying... but not like in the past wen i was really dead... this time.. its kinda mellow but it still affects me...
im having this dilemma of how to deal with the pain of being stuck in between... being stuck in between right and good, responsibility and duties and the feelings of the past and present...
the agony of not knowing where i should stand or go is tormenting... if i were to choose i'd rather be sleeping like before, stagnant like a water in a pond. independently making her own style and life...
now tell me... where should i go? what should i ought to feel? should i be moving forward or should i be taking a step back... tell me...
the last time i wrote in here was wen i was physically dying... and now im writing to you agen dying... emotionally dying... but not like in the past wen i was really dead... this time.. its kinda mellow but it still affects me...
im having this dilemma of how to deal with the pain of being stuck in between... being stuck in between right and good, responsibility and duties and the feelings of the past and present...
the agony of not knowing where i should stand or go is tormenting... if i were to choose i'd rather be sleeping like before, stagnant like a water in a pond. independently making her own style and life...
now tell me... where should i go? what should i ought to feel? should i be moving forward or should i be taking a step back... tell me...
September 5, 2007
clamourings of a very sick girl!!!
hai... apat na araw na akong may fever... sunday ng mdaling araw pa un ngstart on and off itoh.. sa hapon nwawala xa pwo sa gabi upto madalng araw ang taas ng fever ko... kanina, ngpacheck na ako for typhoid and then tomorrow for dengue namn... gusto ko ng pumasok... sa school at sa work... nabuburo lng ako dito lalo lng ako ngkksakit.. ito na so far ang pinkagrabe kong sakit kc normally di nmn ako dinadapuan ng sakit eh... cguwo bumaba ng sbra ung immune system ko kya ngksakit ako.. miss ko na coc.., mga frens ko.. kakhiya nga kc bgla akong ngtago... e kc nmn khit bumangon sa kama di ko kaya.. khit mglkad ng mhba-hba npapagod na ako..
sana nmn la akong complications na severe.. kc ayoko ma-ospital... dahil it reminds me of my papa... gusto ko ng pumasok!! gusto ko ng mgwork! sana by fri or monday pwede na ako bumalik... sabi sa medical certificate ko ang initial findings sa akin ay Systematic Viral Infection VS Typhoid Fever R/o Urinary Tract Infection. balak pa ata nila ako iadmit! AYOKO NGA!!!! oo!! mtigas ang ulo ko!! ayoko mgpaadmit!!! kya nga pla gising pa ako hnggng ngaun kc feeling ko sa twing humihiga ako o kya ntutulog bumabalik ung lgnat ko... kya ayoko matulog... kya naisipan ko na lng mgblog...
iddrop ko n nga pla ung sbjct kong polgov and stats.. la ako matutunn sa knila.. kukunin ko na lng sa summer... at least mkkpgfocus ako... :D pra rin khit papanu mbgyn ko ng atensyon ung major play ng class, para makatulong... :D kc headache tlga akin ung 2subjects na un eh!!! ang BWISIT ang mga TEACHERS!!!!!
ayokong matulog!! ayokong matulog! ayokong matulog!!! wwwaaahhh!!!
nga pla... ive had sme realizations... narealize ko na... kaylngn ko n tlga xang pabyaan...kc he doesn't care about me... and that's the saddest truth... :(
sana nmn la akong complications na severe.. kc ayoko ma-ospital... dahil it reminds me of my papa... gusto ko ng pumasok!! gusto ko ng mgwork! sana by fri or monday pwede na ako bumalik... sabi sa medical certificate ko ang initial findings sa akin ay Systematic Viral Infection VS Typhoid Fever R/o Urinary Tract Infection. balak pa ata nila ako iadmit! AYOKO NGA!!!! oo!! mtigas ang ulo ko!! ayoko mgpaadmit!!! kya nga pla gising pa ako hnggng ngaun kc feeling ko sa twing humihiga ako o kya ntutulog bumabalik ung lgnat ko... kya ayoko matulog... kya naisipan ko na lng mgblog...
iddrop ko n nga pla ung sbjct kong polgov and stats.. la ako matutunn sa knila.. kukunin ko na lng sa summer... at least mkkpgfocus ako... :D pra rin khit papanu mbgyn ko ng atensyon ung major play ng class, para makatulong... :D kc headache tlga akin ung 2subjects na un eh!!! ang BWISIT ang mga TEACHERS!!!!!
ayokong matulog!! ayokong matulog! ayokong matulog!!! wwwaaahhh!!!
nga pla... ive had sme realizations... narealize ko na... kaylngn ko n tlga xang pabyaan...kc he doesn't care about me... and that's the saddest truth... :(
August 17, 2007
i'm sad.
so... im back.. after a few days im back...
i actually have nothing on my mind... i mean mron nmn pwo i dnt wna ryt about it...
nalulungkot ako kc umuulan, ilng arw na alang pasok.., ilang araw n ako alng gnagwa...
six days na kmi di nguusap... la lng nalulungkot lng ako.. pwo i'll get by...
i'm sleepy... matutulog na ako... kc sa panaginip lng kmi nguusp eh... *sigh*
nyt...
i actually have nothing on my mind... i mean mron nmn pwo i dnt wna ryt about it...
nalulungkot ako kc umuulan, ilng arw na alang pasok.., ilang araw n ako alng gnagwa...
six days na kmi di nguusap... la lng nalulungkot lng ako.. pwo i'll get by...
i'm sleepy... matutulog na ako... kc sa panaginip lng kmi nguusp eh... *sigh*
nyt...
August 12, 2007
again, i lost my life when i lost....
i ges khit ayaw mong iwan ng isang tao, pag xa na misimo humingi nun,,ibibigay at ibibigay mo khit masakit,,, umalis n nmn ako ulit,,sabi nia eh... mgpapalaboy-laboy na naman... san na nmn kaya ako makakrating..? panu kya ako ulit ako mabubuhay? hindi na bale... may rason ang lahat... kagaya ng dati... ipauubya ko n lng ulit sa Dyos...
malungkot ako, nasasaktan, feeling ko wala n nmn ang puso ko... kc for the second time pinaalis n nmn nia ako sa buhay nia.. kc for the second time hindi na nia ako ulit kailangn,,, cguwo nga mali ako kc kala ko kailngn nia ako...hindi na pla... pero bakit ganun? parati na lng xa ganun? ginagawa nia akong basahan... tapos la xang pakialam kung nsasaktan na ako... la xang pakialm kung nagagalit na ako... basta ggwin nia lht, susundin nia ng utos ng utak nia khit na may naissantabi na xa... sna hindi na lng xa insensitive.. sna di nalang xa cold.. sna khit mnsan mrmdmn ko na may pakialam xa sa feelings ko... sana di n lng xa bumalik, kung uulitin lng pla nia ung gnwa nia dti... hindi nmn nia ako ppigilan kung umalis ako eh...la rin xa pakialm kung bumalik ulit ako, conceited xa sa feelings nia eh... kinakahon nia lahat... selfish ka!
anu pa bang dapt kong gawin para iparmdam sau na may isang taong ngpapahalaga sau ng sobra?? magpakamatay? uminom ng lason? la na akong ibng alam gawin... i know i dnt know how to love perfectly,but im loving you as much as i know how to... sabi nla di ka worthy sa affection n bnbgay ko... na dapt na kitang isantabi at humanap ng iba na papahalagahn rin ako... tama sila! di ka nga worthy...kc ang baba prin ng turing mo sakin...khit anung gawin ko... ung ibng frens mo pag kelangn ka nila, agad2x mong sasamhn, pwo ako... khit malapit ko na isuko lht,khit na di ko na kaya... di mo ako msamhn... you would just want me understnd that u cnt help me... dba unfair un? db?
u want me to understnd u always... but does it occur to you even for a single moment that i need u to understnd me also? that i really need you when i say i need you? selfish ka nga... tanga nmn ako... di ako ung tipo ng tao na humihingi ng kapalit..pwo sana ang gusto ko lng importnsya...khit konti.. kc mahalga un sakin eh...
at this very moment, im not mad... im just dead... dead from sadness... immobilzed by tears... and corrupted,for once again... you sent me away...so casually...
sbi mo u'll change na,,, gift mo un sakin nung birthday ko dba? san na gift mo? :(
malungkot ako, nasasaktan, feeling ko wala n nmn ang puso ko... kc for the second time pinaalis n nmn nia ako sa buhay nia.. kc for the second time hindi na nia ako ulit kailangn,,, cguwo nga mali ako kc kala ko kailngn nia ako...hindi na pla... pero bakit ganun? parati na lng xa ganun? ginagawa nia akong basahan... tapos la xang pakialam kung nsasaktan na ako... la xang pakialm kung nagagalit na ako... basta ggwin nia lht, susundin nia ng utos ng utak nia khit na may naissantabi na xa... sna hindi na lng xa insensitive.. sna di nalang xa cold.. sna khit mnsan mrmdmn ko na may pakialam xa sa feelings ko... sana di n lng xa bumalik, kung uulitin lng pla nia ung gnwa nia dti... hindi nmn nia ako ppigilan kung umalis ako eh...la rin xa pakialm kung bumalik ulit ako, conceited xa sa feelings nia eh... kinakahon nia lahat... selfish ka!
anu pa bang dapt kong gawin para iparmdam sau na may isang taong ngpapahalaga sau ng sobra?? magpakamatay? uminom ng lason? la na akong ibng alam gawin... i know i dnt know how to love perfectly,but im loving you as much as i know how to... sabi nla di ka worthy sa affection n bnbgay ko... na dapt na kitang isantabi at humanap ng iba na papahalagahn rin ako... tama sila! di ka nga worthy...kc ang baba prin ng turing mo sakin...khit anung gawin ko... ung ibng frens mo pag kelangn ka nila, agad2x mong sasamhn, pwo ako... khit malapit ko na isuko lht,khit na di ko na kaya... di mo ako msamhn... you would just want me understnd that u cnt help me... dba unfair un? db?
u want me to understnd u always... but does it occur to you even for a single moment that i need u to understnd me also? that i really need you when i say i need you? selfish ka nga... tanga nmn ako... di ako ung tipo ng tao na humihingi ng kapalit..pwo sana ang gusto ko lng importnsya...khit konti.. kc mahalga un sakin eh...
at this very moment, im not mad... im just dead... dead from sadness... immobilzed by tears... and corrupted,for once again... you sent me away...so casually...
sbi mo u'll change na,,, gift mo un sakin nung birthday ko dba? san na gift mo? :(
August 9, 2007
**you wouldn't want to be in my shoe....**
"bakit ko pa susbukan na iwan ka at mabuhay ng wala ka kung alam ko namang hindi ko kaya..?!"
im in daze the whole day... alam ko marami dpt akong gawin, pwo hindi ko nagawa...
nanuod lng ako ng TV buong araw... ang dami kong iniisp...^_^
im worried about him....ayoko ung ganito! na hindi ko lam kung anu ngyyri sa knya..kung asan xa! ayaw na ayaw kong umalis sa tabi nia na alam kong mayroon xang dinaramdam... natatkot ako sa kung anong pwedeng nyang gawin... damn, naiiyak na ako! :(
hindi ko alm kung anu ngyyri sakin...pero buong arw na ito! i can't seem to get my mind off him! i'm worried, that's all i know... scared and worried...
my dream last night, it wasn't good... he told me that's he's leaving... than i woke up having a painful heart. i don't want him to go... i just can't go on without him... for as long as i know he needs someone, i can't go and i wouldn't want him to go... the mere thought of him leaving scares me, i can't see him go away,, not again...
i know im being selfish! i know that! the world can call me selfish, conceited... anything! but still, they won't understnd how i feel... how much i treasure him... how much he means to me... well,i can let him go if i want to...i'll just tell him to go and that i'll be fine... but i cant! i dont want to! coz i know that i won't be alright! i wont be alright!!!! for once, i want the one person who matters to me stay... stay... my father left me when he died... my bestfriend did when he migrated... i was nver the same..!
important men in my life seem to have a pattern,and that is too leave me... and now that i can decide if he shall stay, then why the hell would i allow him to go? why?
tell me...?
i'm so sorry for being selfish... i just cant let him go...again...
i'm sorry...
im in daze the whole day... alam ko marami dpt akong gawin, pwo hindi ko nagawa...
nanuod lng ako ng TV buong araw... ang dami kong iniisp...^_^
im worried about him....ayoko ung ganito! na hindi ko lam kung anu ngyyri sa knya..kung asan xa! ayaw na ayaw kong umalis sa tabi nia na alam kong mayroon xang dinaramdam... natatkot ako sa kung anong pwedeng nyang gawin... damn, naiiyak na ako! :(
hindi ko alm kung anu ngyyri sakin...pero buong arw na ito! i can't seem to get my mind off him! i'm worried, that's all i know... scared and worried...
my dream last night, it wasn't good... he told me that's he's leaving... than i woke up having a painful heart. i don't want him to go... i just can't go on without him... for as long as i know he needs someone, i can't go and i wouldn't want him to go... the mere thought of him leaving scares me, i can't see him go away,, not again...
i know im being selfish! i know that! the world can call me selfish, conceited... anything! but still, they won't understnd how i feel... how much i treasure him... how much he means to me... well,i can let him go if i want to...i'll just tell him to go and that i'll be fine... but i cant! i dont want to! coz i know that i won't be alright! i wont be alright!!!! for once, i want the one person who matters to me stay... stay... my father left me when he died... my bestfriend did when he migrated... i was nver the same..!
important men in my life seem to have a pattern,and that is too leave me... and now that i can decide if he shall stay, then why the hell would i allow him to go? why?
tell me...?
i'm so sorry for being selfish... i just cant let him go...again...
i'm sorry...
May 20, 2007
The long wait is over,,.. im sorry Twinkle...! ^_^
after almost one month... mgpopost ulit ako ng entry sa blog ko!! yipee...
u know wat... i miss doing this... sobra! pero kc khit gutso kong gumwa ng new entry... hindi kya ng utak at katwan ko... kc paguwi ko ng haus..diretso na ako kama at mtutulog na ako buong araw...dhil buong gabi...nsa work ako... paxenxa na tlga.. nahihya nga ako buksan ung blog ko eh...feeling ko ang laki ng kasalann ko kay Twinkle!
marami-rami nrin akong iniisp... marami nrin ang ngyri... pwo merong mga bgay na hndi ko alm kung papanu sabhin dito... pwo maguumpisa parin ako...
Work: ang status ko ngaun sa work...? probi na ako... employee na ako ng Winsource! and i got my first paycheck nung 15!! damn! im working na tlga! hahaha! nung una nhirapn ako sa work ko... kala nila madali ang call center,,,oi! hind ah! try kya nila mgsalita for 8 hours..!! anyway...sabi ko nga nhirpn ako nung una... pwo ngaun... im beginning to love it na! kc i've realized that walang mngyayari skin kung ko mamahalin ang trabaho ko...mapalad na ako kc may work ako..! tska napamahal na sakin ung mga officemates ko!! sila carla, bj, zhy, mark, pj at marami png iba..!! ^_^ but the question is...di ko lm kung hanggng kelan lang ako.. kc yoko mginterfere ung work ko sa studies ko eh,,, kc mas importnte prin ung studies ko.. pwo i'll cross the bridge when i get there na lng...basta ang mahalaga..lam ko kung anu dpt kong gwin... hehe!
Elite: hai! as usual!! kung san2x n nmn mi nkkpnta!! khit may work, wlang keme yan! no prob! bsta hinila ng paa...gora lng! fred and i are in the same account.. while sey is in another... kimmy, is making her way to and fro sa haus ng cousins nia! darlyn...i just know i miss her... :( i miss that daughter of mine... :( bibat, have no idea...ang lam ko lng ngwowok xa sa oneglobal... guilly, our next birthday boy! sa sat...diretso kmi sa Bataan after work! para sa celebration nia!! haha! elden, i just hope she is okay... :( jm..aun...araw2x ko prin tintwgn sa haus nila pwo la nmn xa...o kya tulog... hekhek... kael,my bunso! he is enjoying summer!! that im sure! aiko..in the middle of making her first novel!! see? elite eh! rj, sowi! total peformer na ngaun ang pamangkin ko!! si jayson..kaxama si darla kya panatag ang kalooban ko na okay lng sila... si gemxon...ang huling balita ko..ngwowork narin xa,, si hazel, last week ko xa huling nakachat eh... si minggay,i have no idea kung san na ung anak kong un!! huhuhu! si masaru...i just he is okay rin...sna ok lng sila dalawa ni den... at si mart????? si mart...???? ok lng nmn ata.. nung isang araw xa huling ngtext...ewan ko kung nsan un ngaun...
At yan ang latest news as Elite! haha... actually latest yan aun sa akin pgkakaalam.. hekhek! kc ako mismo naiiwnn na ng panahon eh... hekhek...
one thing ive learned from the past month,,, whenever may hinain sau ang buhay... take it! enjoy it! try to love it... kc may purpose lht un eh! khit na mhirpn ka, sa una lng yan... alisn mo lht ng agam2x mo... then slowly... u will learn to accept, slowly u will begin to realize that... life is REALLY fun! it isnt ufair... its just how u deal with it!
ngpapasalamt ako sa aking trabaho,sa mama ko at sister ko, sa akng trainor na si sir john, sa aking TL na si maam violan at sir mickey... sa aking elite, kay mart... for helping me realize these things... for helping me gain more undrstndng...much more than i've wanted to.. and xempre kay Yahweh! muah!
u know wat... i miss doing this... sobra! pero kc khit gutso kong gumwa ng new entry... hindi kya ng utak at katwan ko... kc paguwi ko ng haus..diretso na ako kama at mtutulog na ako buong araw...dhil buong gabi...nsa work ako... paxenxa na tlga.. nahihya nga ako buksan ung blog ko eh...feeling ko ang laki ng kasalann ko kay Twinkle!
marami-rami nrin akong iniisp... marami nrin ang ngyri... pwo merong mga bgay na hndi ko alm kung papanu sabhin dito... pwo maguumpisa parin ako...
Work: ang status ko ngaun sa work...? probi na ako... employee na ako ng Winsource! and i got my first paycheck nung 15!! damn! im working na tlga! hahaha! nung una nhirapn ako sa work ko... kala nila madali ang call center,,,oi! hind ah! try kya nila mgsalita for 8 hours..!! anyway...sabi ko nga nhirpn ako nung una... pwo ngaun... im beginning to love it na! kc i've realized that walang mngyayari skin kung ko mamahalin ang trabaho ko...mapalad na ako kc may work ako..! tska napamahal na sakin ung mga officemates ko!! sila carla, bj, zhy, mark, pj at marami png iba..!! ^_^ but the question is...di ko lm kung hanggng kelan lang ako.. kc yoko mginterfere ung work ko sa studies ko eh,,, kc mas importnte prin ung studies ko.. pwo i'll cross the bridge when i get there na lng...basta ang mahalaga..lam ko kung anu dpt kong gwin... hehe!
Elite: hai! as usual!! kung san2x n nmn mi nkkpnta!! khit may work, wlang keme yan! no prob! bsta hinila ng paa...gora lng! fred and i are in the same account.. while sey is in another... kimmy, is making her way to and fro sa haus ng cousins nia! darlyn...i just know i miss her... :( i miss that daughter of mine... :( bibat, have no idea...ang lam ko lng ngwowok xa sa oneglobal... guilly, our next birthday boy! sa sat...diretso kmi sa Bataan after work! para sa celebration nia!! haha! elden, i just hope she is okay... :( jm..aun...araw2x ko prin tintwgn sa haus nila pwo la nmn xa...o kya tulog... hekhek... kael,my bunso! he is enjoying summer!! that im sure! aiko..in the middle of making her first novel!! see? elite eh! rj, sowi! total peformer na ngaun ang pamangkin ko!! si jayson..kaxama si darla kya panatag ang kalooban ko na okay lng sila... si gemxon...ang huling balita ko..ngwowork narin xa,, si hazel, last week ko xa huling nakachat eh... si minggay,i have no idea kung san na ung anak kong un!! huhuhu! si masaru...i just he is okay rin...sna ok lng sila dalawa ni den... at si mart????? si mart...???? ok lng nmn ata.. nung isang araw xa huling ngtext...ewan ko kung nsan un ngaun...
At yan ang latest news as Elite! haha... actually latest yan aun sa akin pgkakaalam.. hekhek! kc ako mismo naiiwnn na ng panahon eh... hekhek...
one thing ive learned from the past month,,, whenever may hinain sau ang buhay... take it! enjoy it! try to love it... kc may purpose lht un eh! khit na mhirpn ka, sa una lng yan... alisn mo lht ng agam2x mo... then slowly... u will learn to accept, slowly u will begin to realize that... life is REALLY fun! it isnt ufair... its just how u deal with it!
ngpapasalamt ako sa aking trabaho,sa mama ko at sister ko, sa akng trainor na si sir john, sa aking TL na si maam violan at sir mickey... sa aking elite, kay mart... for helping me realize these things... for helping me gain more undrstndng...much more than i've wanted to.. and xempre kay Yahweh! muah!
April 23, 2007
Recon???
opo... tama po ang nabsa mo sa naunang entry ko knina... "sabi namn skin ni elias..." elias...
yah.. sa mga constant readers ko.. at mga frenships ko... cguwo iniisp nio kung ok na kmi... kc obviously we had a conversation dba? well... im thinking of not disclosing everything here kc may makakabasa... duh? to think na blog ko itoh noh... and ang lakas ng loob ko na mgname ng names in the past...
uhmm... damn... parng ang chicken ko na!! humpf!! cge na nga! mgsasalita na ako... ^_^
if truth be told... after i posted my entry last april 5, entitled thinking things through... ngsawa na tlga ako... un ung last straw... two weeks passed then he called me up asking for my help...to find a certain number... we talked and laughed like we used too... its as if nothing happen... nothing ever happened... pati ako na-amaze eh, inisip ko... panu ngyari un? hahaha... and i was bewildered after that phone call... xmpre as a good person, hinanap ko ung number... and since nagpapahinga ung mga satellite ko... nahirapn akong hnpn ung owner ng number... i called him up after a few days telling him na di ko mhnp... twanan ulit... kwento... di katuld nung dati pag nguusap kmi... noong ang gulo2x pa... actually... msaya ako kc khit papanu... it went well in the end... at alam ko na...si Yahweh ang may gawa nito...
the next night... ngkasundo kmi ng mgkita sa Shang.. ksama ko si fred at sey... i waited for one hour... ni anino ni elias... di ko nkita... but when i was waiting there alone... i knew he would come... khit na lowbat na ung two phones nia... at di ko xa macontact... still i knew na darating xa... i found out na late xa ininterview... kya late xa nkpunta... nangaway pa xa guard sa Shang...
i dunno... khit mtgl na kmi di nguusp...at dumating sa punto na di ko na xa kilala... na yaw ko na xa makilala... na sobra na ung mga nyari sa amin... still... sitting there alone in Shang, half scared and half worried... narealize ko na i still have faith in him... na he would come...come what may...like before...
nung sat ng gabi... umalis ako,si kim,fred,sey at xa... pnta kmi g8way... nag ukay2x, then uminom kmi ng coffee sa starbucks... it was then when i saw him laughing again... at hndi ako natawa dhil sa rason kung bkit xa tumatawa, tumawa ako dhil nkita ko xang tumatawa...well it has been a long time...6 months...
ok... itoh na ang mga present views ko sa mga ngyari...
im happy kc for no reason... prng out of the blue... ngprmdm ulit si mart... pati kela kimmy... ngttxt na xa ulit... hndi ko na mkita ung barrier na naktayo sa gitna namin dati...sa gitna nia at elite... di ko nrin mrmdmn ulit ung coldness between us... ung coldness na nakakapatay... he is warm again... anu kaya nakain nia...? i wnt to know... naumpog kya..? sana nahalata nia kung ganu namin xa namiss, kung gano kami enjoy ksma xa... kung gano kmi ngcacare...even though we are different...!
masaya rin ako kc... God took away more than half of my pains, before ngprmdm ulit si mart... kc kung hndi.. nku... Goodluck... sbi ng isang fren ko... i wont name that person na lng... sabi nia... "may kulng prin xa kc di prin nia narerealize lht ng gnawa niang mali..."... ang akin nmn... i know we still have alot to talk about... i just dont know when, how and where to start... but we still have to talk... now pa na di ko n mhnp ung more than half of my anger... kya mas peaceful na ako ngaun... hahaha! spoiled prin sakin si mart... pwo yayo ko ulit xa... joke! hahaha!
before i sleep... i wnt to add something... i am not where i used to stand... things are not the same... and i know that... i lost something very importnt... and i dnt know if i can still get it back... but this is for sure...once na mawala ung essence ng friendship... mahirap na...
yah.. sa mga constant readers ko.. at mga frenships ko... cguwo iniisp nio kung ok na kmi... kc obviously we had a conversation dba? well... im thinking of not disclosing everything here kc may makakabasa... duh? to think na blog ko itoh noh... and ang lakas ng loob ko na mgname ng names in the past...
uhmm... damn... parng ang chicken ko na!! humpf!! cge na nga! mgsasalita na ako... ^_^
if truth be told... after i posted my entry last april 5, entitled thinking things through... ngsawa na tlga ako... un ung last straw... two weeks passed then he called me up asking for my help...to find a certain number... we talked and laughed like we used too... its as if nothing happen... nothing ever happened... pati ako na-amaze eh, inisip ko... panu ngyari un? hahaha... and i was bewildered after that phone call... xmpre as a good person, hinanap ko ung number... and since nagpapahinga ung mga satellite ko... nahirapn akong hnpn ung owner ng number... i called him up after a few days telling him na di ko mhnp... twanan ulit... kwento... di katuld nung dati pag nguusap kmi... noong ang gulo2x pa... actually... msaya ako kc khit papanu... it went well in the end... at alam ko na...si Yahweh ang may gawa nito...
the next night... ngkasundo kmi ng mgkita sa Shang.. ksama ko si fred at sey... i waited for one hour... ni anino ni elias... di ko nkita... but when i was waiting there alone... i knew he would come... khit na lowbat na ung two phones nia... at di ko xa macontact... still i knew na darating xa... i found out na late xa ininterview... kya late xa nkpunta... nangaway pa xa guard sa Shang...
i dunno... khit mtgl na kmi di nguusp...at dumating sa punto na di ko na xa kilala... na yaw ko na xa makilala... na sobra na ung mga nyari sa amin... still... sitting there alone in Shang, half scared and half worried... narealize ko na i still have faith in him... na he would come...come what may...like before...
nung sat ng gabi... umalis ako,si kim,fred,sey at xa... pnta kmi g8way... nag ukay2x, then uminom kmi ng coffee sa starbucks... it was then when i saw him laughing again... at hndi ako natawa dhil sa rason kung bkit xa tumatawa, tumawa ako dhil nkita ko xang tumatawa...well it has been a long time...6 months...
ok... itoh na ang mga present views ko sa mga ngyari...
im happy kc for no reason... prng out of the blue... ngprmdm ulit si mart... pati kela kimmy... ngttxt na xa ulit... hndi ko na mkita ung barrier na naktayo sa gitna namin dati...sa gitna nia at elite... di ko nrin mrmdmn ulit ung coldness between us... ung coldness na nakakapatay... he is warm again... anu kaya nakain nia...? i wnt to know... naumpog kya..? sana nahalata nia kung ganu namin xa namiss, kung gano kami enjoy ksma xa... kung gano kmi ngcacare...even though we are different...!
masaya rin ako kc... God took away more than half of my pains, before ngprmdm ulit si mart... kc kung hndi.. nku... Goodluck... sbi ng isang fren ko... i wont name that person na lng... sabi nia... "may kulng prin xa kc di prin nia narerealize lht ng gnawa niang mali..."... ang akin nmn... i know we still have alot to talk about... i just dont know when, how and where to start... but we still have to talk... now pa na di ko n mhnp ung more than half of my anger... kya mas peaceful na ako ngaun... hahaha! spoiled prin sakin si mart... pwo yayo ko ulit xa... joke! hahaha!
before i sleep... i wnt to add something... i am not where i used to stand... things are not the same... and i know that... i lost something very importnt... and i dnt know if i can still get it back... but this is for sure...once na mawala ung essence ng friendship... mahirap na...
help me i'm drowning....
im so sorry twinkle!! it has been a long time since i posted my last entry here... kc ang daming life-changing experience ang ngyari sa life ko eh... at dahil sa mga ngyri na itoh... gusto ko ng sumabog!! haii!! grabe... let me start with...
last2x thursday.... ngumpisa na ung training ko for work... it will last for a month, at ngaun nsa incubation period na ako... ang hirap sobra,... kung kala nio madali ang call center mali kayo... mali.. nakakapressure.... ang sarap bumitaw... kung di lng para sa family ko... kung di ko lng sila iniisip,kung id lng sa gola ko na isang DVD cam... di na ako papasok... di nmn kc ako sanay mgwork eh... kc nga dba brat ako... nung isang arw...minura ako ng isng customer na tinawagan ko... ang sabi p nmn... "for a while dude...there's a fucking asshole on the other line..." e ako ung nasa other line eh... the moment na binaba ko ung call... i want to get out of ryt then and there.. i want to flee ang go home... di nmn ako mkaganti.... matatanggal nmn ako sa work...kya grabe...nkatingin n lng ako sa screen ng monitor na kala mo tutulo na luha ko... at ngaun... mmya pasok na nmn... 1'll be taking calls for 8hours... i'll start by 9pm upto 5am...maglologout ng 6am... mkakarting ng haus ng 7am... gosh... anh hirap kc bago plng ako and i havent found the perfect strategy to get constant tranfers... and i have to really figure something out before shit comes!!!!
sabi nmn sakin ni elias.... na i should be thankful kc may work ako unlike ung mga nkksama nia nung interview nia na college graduates pwo di nkpasa... i know nmn eh... im grateful nmn tlga... mkha lng akong ingrate pwo grateful tlga ako... its just that... im not used to working... and first call center... i know i must do good... and i will do good... i will find a way... cguwo... naninibago prin ako... i have to get the hang of it... the ins and out... ASAP!!! or else... di ako tatagal...
biruin mo pag nasa post kna... kailngn focus ka... kailangn di ka kakabahan... di ko lm kung mageexcel ako dito... kailngn ko mageffort... my gesh.... gusto ko tumigil ung oras... o kya ung mundo..... let me breathe!! aaaahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
last2x thursday.... ngumpisa na ung training ko for work... it will last for a month, at ngaun nsa incubation period na ako... ang hirap sobra,... kung kala nio madali ang call center mali kayo... mali.. nakakapressure.... ang sarap bumitaw... kung di lng para sa family ko... kung di ko lng sila iniisip,kung id lng sa gola ko na isang DVD cam... di na ako papasok... di nmn kc ako sanay mgwork eh... kc nga dba brat ako... nung isang arw...minura ako ng isng customer na tinawagan ko... ang sabi p nmn... "for a while dude...there's a fucking asshole on the other line..." e ako ung nasa other line eh... the moment na binaba ko ung call... i want to get out of ryt then and there.. i want to flee ang go home... di nmn ako mkaganti.... matatanggal nmn ako sa work...kya grabe...nkatingin n lng ako sa screen ng monitor na kala mo tutulo na luha ko... at ngaun... mmya pasok na nmn... 1'll be taking calls for 8hours... i'll start by 9pm upto 5am...maglologout ng 6am... mkakarting ng haus ng 7am... gosh... anh hirap kc bago plng ako and i havent found the perfect strategy to get constant tranfers... and i have to really figure something out before shit comes!!!!
sabi nmn sakin ni elias.... na i should be thankful kc may work ako unlike ung mga nkksama nia nung interview nia na college graduates pwo di nkpasa... i know nmn eh... im grateful nmn tlga... mkha lng akong ingrate pwo grateful tlga ako... its just that... im not used to working... and first call center... i know i must do good... and i will do good... i will find a way... cguwo... naninibago prin ako... i have to get the hang of it... the ins and out... ASAP!!! or else... di ako tatagal...
biruin mo pag nasa post kna... kailngn focus ka... kailangn di ka kakabahan... di ko lm kung mageexcel ako dito... kailngn ko mageffort... my gesh.... gusto ko tumigil ung oras... o kya ung mundo..... let me breathe!! aaaahhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
April 11, 2007
tired but happy...
bukas ko na ikkwnto ng detalyado ang ngyari sakin ngaung day! nga pla... nakapasa ako sa call center!! yahoo!!!!! basta weird ung day n itoh... basta ang dming meaning... tom n lng ha... pagod na ako eh... na-drain unng utak ko.... tatah!
April 9, 2007
For my ONLY Best Friend... Cj...
i intentionally FORGOT to tell you that i wrote something about you...^_^ i was kinda waiting for the perfect time to let you read it... and since today is your birthday..voila! indulge yourself bes! i really wish that i can celebrate your birthday with you... but i can't.. Canada is just too far.. im sorry... but dnt worry! i shall shout "happy birthday bes!" at the top of my lungs, like we always do...! i miss you Cj... it has been 10 months... exactly 303 days... approximately 7,272 hours... around 436,320 minutes... more or less 26,179,200 seconds... since i last saw your face bes... my life back here was nver ever the same... i seldom hear your laughs nowadays... your crazy antics... and your muffled cries... its kinda lonely here without you... but im getting by... coz, i know that we are just under the same sky... and we are now flying with our own wings and someday... i know that within the vast horizon... we'll see each other again... someday...
Bes
“If there is such thing as “soul mates” there could also be “soul best friends”
It was back in pre-school when I first met Cj… around 17 years ago. We were classmates but I didn’t paid enough attention to him. I was like the loud bubbly child and he was the intelligent but quiet kid. Our parents were friends but we’re not that close, I actually forgot all about him after our pre-school graduation.
Obviously, with my pigtails and rosy cheeks I had no idea that’s he’s going to be one of the most important person in my life right now.
We met again after 10 years, it actually started with a smile and the rest was history. Cj is probably the best gift I’ve ever received. He’s my perfect friend, my confidant, my brother, my listener, and my “Bes”. He never fails me, accepted me for I am, loved me despite my imperfections, and with that, I’ll never be the same again. He’s actually in Canada right now, and we are technically thousand miles away from each other. It was really painful seeing him go, really hard adjusting… yet now, we are actually doing good… I guess. it’s because I’ll never leave him, and he said that he’ll never leave me too… or maybe we just can’t live without each other. And this distance between us is just a test, to measure how far we shall go to keep our friendship in place.
Gareth Christopher Jacinto Wee is my “soul best friend” and I’ve got a whole lot of past lives to prove it... seriously...
hope you like it... ^_^ just so you know... im proud of you! i'll always be! miss you bes... thank you for everything... love you!
again... Happy Birthday Gareth Christopher Jacinto Wee..! painom k nmn... joke... lol...
psst,, uwi kna dito... ^_^
Bes
“If there is such thing as “soul mates” there could also be “soul best friends”
It was back in pre-school when I first met Cj… around 17 years ago. We were classmates but I didn’t paid enough attention to him. I was like the loud bubbly child and he was the intelligent but quiet kid. Our parents were friends but we’re not that close, I actually forgot all about him after our pre-school graduation.
Obviously, with my pigtails and rosy cheeks I had no idea that’s he’s going to be one of the most important person in my life right now.
We met again after 10 years, it actually started with a smile and the rest was history. Cj is probably the best gift I’ve ever received. He’s my perfect friend, my confidant, my brother, my listener, and my “Bes”. He never fails me, accepted me for I am, loved me despite my imperfections, and with that, I’ll never be the same again. He’s actually in Canada right now, and we are technically thousand miles away from each other. It was really painful seeing him go, really hard adjusting… yet now, we are actually doing good… I guess. it’s because I’ll never leave him, and he said that he’ll never leave me too… or maybe we just can’t live without each other. And this distance between us is just a test, to measure how far we shall go to keep our friendship in place.
Gareth Christopher Jacinto Wee is my “soul best friend” and I’ve got a whole lot of past lives to prove it... seriously...
hope you like it... ^_^ just so you know... im proud of you! i'll always be! miss you bes... thank you for everything... love you!
again... Happy Birthday Gareth Christopher Jacinto Wee..! painom k nmn... joke... lol...
psst,, uwi kna dito... ^_^
April 7, 2007
eca 101...
"ui... sign mo nmn autograph book ko oh... please... exchange na lng tayo!" i can still remmber the way i used to say these words.. may pacute effect pa...!! halos lht ata ng bata dumaan sa ganito db? ung maguunahang bumili ng autograph book sa school bookstore at sasabhing "ui ako una magsasign ha...","hindi kya, ako kaya nauna..db Mau... ako ung una...?"... o kya ung ganito... "mas mgnda ung akin! may mga stickers! sayo wala!", "binili pa itoh ng mommy ko sa National... mahal yan... tgnan mo oh... ang daming pictures!"... nakaktawa... ung mga boses ng mga classmates ko... hanggng ngaun tila naririnig ko pa... good old days....^_^ dati halos arw2x ata ako bumibili ng autograph book... ^_^ i remmber nung grade6 ako... nagipon ako ng money para makabili ng isang "top of the line" autograph book... taz pinasign ko sa barkada ko at pati rin sa mga teachers ko khit hindi ko sila gusto laht... khit ung isa sa knila ang dahilan kung bkit muntik nang ipatawag parents ko... grr...
newei.... gagawin ko ngaun ang ala-autograph book... or kung mas shala eh... ala-slum book effect na entry... let me start with...:
name: Erica Bacalso Ngui
nickname: Eca, eckie, ickay, kang, sim2x, atchie, at "bes" para sa bes ko...
address: Manila... tama na itoh... net kya itoh noh?!!
birthday: july 7, 1986
age: 20
birthplace: chinese general hospital
telephone number: 09212732622
email-add: eca_martin@yahoo.com
zodiac: cancer
chinese zodiac: tiger
school: Polytechnic University of the Philippnes
course: broadcast communication... opo, di po journalism!
yr & section: incoming third year student...
birthmark: sa likod ng thigh, sa left arm, sa neck...
moles: marami sa face..maliit nga lng...
hobbies: blogging, reading, writing, surfing the net, watching tv, listening to music, doing nothing and daydreaming.. hahaha...
collection: original Sailormoon trading cards...^_^ nsa akin prin upto now..
dislikes: RATS!!!! tska mga taong mapagpanggap... mga taong oportunista maxado! mga taong nakikialam ng buhay ng may buhay! mga insecure!! mga taong ahas!!!!!!
likes: anything that would make me happy.. ^_^ mga taong trustworthy, loyal, loving, sweet, honest, sincere, compassionate tska xempre dapt fun xa kasma... ^_^
fetish: nail fetish na khit walng nail polish nails ko basta dpt malinis parati!! as in!
"favorites"
subject: vacant period! haha... anything to do with english...
character: si dexter!!! tska si kenshin himura! hihihi...
sport: badminton
color: black and red
piece of jewelry: ring na gift sakin ni kimmy and bes
pet: pongpong
radio station: 89.9 magic
books: harry potter saga, five people you meet in heaven, by the river piedra i sat down and wept at marami pang iba...
authors: Paolo Coelho, Nicholas Sparks, Mitch Albom, Anne Rice, JK Rowling, Danielle Steel, Judith Mcnaught, Bob Ong at marami pang iba... ^_^
movies: Ever After, City of Angels, Walk to Remember, The Notebook, Just Like Heaven, If Only, Cinderella Story, 50 First Dates, Bestfriend's Wedding, Notting Hill, Mr and Mrs Smith, Troy, Saw... 48yrs bago ko itoh matapos...
shows: CSI, CSi Miami, CSI New York, ANTM, Runway, Tyra Banks Show...
actress: Drew Barrymore!!! Sarah Michelle Gellar, Angelina Jolie... tsaka si Judyanne.. bkit? e sa talgng magling xa umarte noh!!!
actors: Adam Sandler tska si Piolo... lol..
music: Rnb mellow and pop..
bands: PCD,Rivermaya, Spongecola, Hale, Destiny's Child, and xempre ang Spice Girls!!!
singers: Regine, Lea Salonga, Mariah, Christina Aguilera, Madonna, Leanne Rimes, Barbara Streisand, Will Smith, at ang aking fave pop princess Britney Spears!
songs: ryt now: only reminds me of you, all-time: crazy for you
food: shrimp tempura, maki, dimsum and luto ng mama ko... ^_^
restaurants: saisaki and tokyo2x..
attire: i mostly wears minis and tank tops with my wedge...
"first"
pet: ung hotdog ko na si hotdog! npaka-redundant!
cellphone: ung philips savvy...color blue at may horoscope pa un!
out of town trip: cebu when i was 2 years old...
line of 7 na grade: 79...chinese,,,dnt ask... T_T
love: hanep! never ko nga nsabi sa knia taz dito sasabhin ko... clue na lng... _i_k_!
crush: si patrick garcia ata... taz nagaddict xa.. yaw ko na!
kiss...?: haha... sa isang girl... smack lng noh... ^_^ che!
hold hands: basta nung nung 15 ako... ^_^
boyfriend: Jason Martinez... a long time ago...
fling: dnt remmber his name... lol!!!
"trivia"
piercings: 10 ear piercings in 3 years...
bags: 15 and counting...
shoes/sandals: 10 pairs but hndi lht sinusot ko... msakit kya sa paa ang super heels noh!
pieces of clothes in my wardrobe: di ko mabilang... basta madmi xa... hahahaha...
describe yourself...: look at my picture sa taas ng site ko...
what is a friend: a real friend walks in when the rest of the world walks out...
define love: love is overrated... hahahaha! love is a decision...
who are your friends: bes ko, elite, nhie2x, jm, mayel, HS barkada and coc friends!!!
who is your crush: upto now si Jerry Yan parin!!!!! huhuhuhuhu...
who is your love: family, friends, Yahweh, and... wla... basta wla...!!
happiest moment: nung niyakap ako from the back ni... un na un...
ambition: to be ambitous! joke! to be a succesful media practitioner and to write screenplays!!
motto: nothing is coincidence...
pati ba dedication? wag na lng... nxt time na lng un... ^_^
now... i ask you... ikaw? kilala mo ba sarili mo? *wink*
newei.... gagawin ko ngaun ang ala-autograph book... or kung mas shala eh... ala-slum book effect na entry... let me start with...:
name: Erica Bacalso Ngui
nickname: Eca, eckie, ickay, kang, sim2x, atchie, at "bes" para sa bes ko...
address: Manila... tama na itoh... net kya itoh noh?!!
birthday: july 7, 1986
age: 20
birthplace: chinese general hospital
telephone number: 09212732622
email-add: eca_martin@yahoo.com
zodiac: cancer
chinese zodiac: tiger
school: Polytechnic University of the Philippnes
course: broadcast communication... opo, di po journalism!
yr & section: incoming third year student...
birthmark: sa likod ng thigh, sa left arm, sa neck...
moles: marami sa face..maliit nga lng...
hobbies: blogging, reading, writing, surfing the net, watching tv, listening to music, doing nothing and daydreaming.. hahaha...
collection: original Sailormoon trading cards...^_^ nsa akin prin upto now..
dislikes: RATS!!!! tska mga taong mapagpanggap... mga taong oportunista maxado! mga taong nakikialam ng buhay ng may buhay! mga insecure!! mga taong ahas!!!!!!
likes: anything that would make me happy.. ^_^ mga taong trustworthy, loyal, loving, sweet, honest, sincere, compassionate tska xempre dapt fun xa kasma... ^_^
fetish: nail fetish na khit walng nail polish nails ko basta dpt malinis parati!! as in!
"favorites"
subject: vacant period! haha... anything to do with english...
character: si dexter!!! tska si kenshin himura! hihihi...
sport: badminton
color: black and red
piece of jewelry: ring na gift sakin ni kimmy and bes
pet: pongpong
radio station: 89.9 magic
books: harry potter saga, five people you meet in heaven, by the river piedra i sat down and wept at marami pang iba...
authors: Paolo Coelho, Nicholas Sparks, Mitch Albom, Anne Rice, JK Rowling, Danielle Steel, Judith Mcnaught, Bob Ong at marami pang iba... ^_^
movies: Ever After, City of Angels, Walk to Remember, The Notebook, Just Like Heaven, If Only, Cinderella Story, 50 First Dates, Bestfriend's Wedding, Notting Hill, Mr and Mrs Smith, Troy, Saw... 48yrs bago ko itoh matapos...
shows: CSI, CSi Miami, CSI New York, ANTM, Runway, Tyra Banks Show...
actress: Drew Barrymore!!! Sarah Michelle Gellar, Angelina Jolie... tsaka si Judyanne.. bkit? e sa talgng magling xa umarte noh!!!
actors: Adam Sandler tska si Piolo... lol..
music: Rnb mellow and pop..
bands: PCD,Rivermaya, Spongecola, Hale, Destiny's Child, and xempre ang Spice Girls!!!
singers: Regine, Lea Salonga, Mariah, Christina Aguilera, Madonna, Leanne Rimes, Barbara Streisand, Will Smith, at ang aking fave pop princess Britney Spears!
songs: ryt now: only reminds me of you, all-time: crazy for you
food: shrimp tempura, maki, dimsum and luto ng mama ko... ^_^
restaurants: saisaki and tokyo2x..
attire: i mostly wears minis and tank tops with my wedge...
"first"
pet: ung hotdog ko na si hotdog! npaka-redundant!
cellphone: ung philips savvy...color blue at may horoscope pa un!
out of town trip: cebu when i was 2 years old...
line of 7 na grade: 79...chinese,,,dnt ask... T_T
love: hanep! never ko nga nsabi sa knia taz dito sasabhin ko... clue na lng... _i_k_!
crush: si patrick garcia ata... taz nagaddict xa.. yaw ko na!
kiss...?: haha... sa isang girl... smack lng noh... ^_^ che!
hold hands: basta nung nung 15 ako... ^_^
boyfriend: Jason Martinez... a long time ago...
fling: dnt remmber his name... lol!!!
"trivia"
piercings: 10 ear piercings in 3 years...
bags: 15 and counting...
shoes/sandals: 10 pairs but hndi lht sinusot ko... msakit kya sa paa ang super heels noh!
pieces of clothes in my wardrobe: di ko mabilang... basta madmi xa... hahahaha...
describe yourself...: look at my picture sa taas ng site ko...
what is a friend: a real friend walks in when the rest of the world walks out...
define love: love is overrated... hahahaha! love is a decision...
who are your friends: bes ko, elite, nhie2x, jm, mayel, HS barkada and coc friends!!!
who is your crush: upto now si Jerry Yan parin!!!!! huhuhuhuhu...
who is your love: family, friends, Yahweh, and... wla... basta wla...!!
happiest moment: nung niyakap ako from the back ni... un na un...
ambition: to be ambitous! joke! to be a succesful media practitioner and to write screenplays!!
motto: nothing is coincidence...
pati ba dedication? wag na lng... nxt time na lng un... ^_^
now... i ask you... ikaw? kilala mo ba sarili mo? *wink*
April 6, 2007
bagay kayong dalawa... isang basura at isang basurero... bwhahahahaha!! - eca
mahilig ba kayo manood ng TV? o kya manood ng movie? ako..oo.. un nga lng... di ako parati nakakapnood kc marami kaagaw sa cable... humpf!!! mga che!! anyway... simula kagabi, hanggng mga 15mins ago... nanunood ako ng mga movie sa TV... khit local movies pinapatos ko na... pati Shark Tale na ilng beses ko na napanood... go na lang...!!
dahil naniniwala ako na lht ng movies... mejo corny man, khit mejo outdated, mejo jologs, mejo ginaya sa theme ng ibng pelikula... may meaning prin! may ibng attack! khit ayaw ko ung mga artista... may meaning prin!! ang gustong-gisto ko ung mga powerful lines!!! ung mga linyang kukurot sa puso! ung tatatak sa isipan! ung khit na nasa CR ka pag narinig mo un... uurong lht ng pwedeng umurong! hahaha! pwo its true... its like magic... a big omnipotent force that would allow you to focus and catch every syllable, every word that you would hear... and automatically stick it in your brain and stay there... for as long as it has to!
this is one of the reasons why i want to weave beautiful stories... why someday i want my stories to be watched in big oversized theaters... by people of all ages and of all genders... and i want them to feel it... be moved by it.. rmmber it for as long as they live... I've decided on this one!! i would not stop weaving stories.... i know i have alot of them up my mind... but if my mind rans out... i would always have my heart though... No Problemo Amigo... haha... isang araw... mapapanood ko na ang mga storya ko sa BIG Screen... invited kayo ha!! ^_^ hehehe...
Di mataas ang pangarap ko... remmber... "the future belongs to those who dream..." :P
newei mabalik nga ako... knina pinanood ko ung movie ni Kristine at Jericho ung Forevermore... minemorize ko tong line na itoh eh... kristine:"ayaw mong tanggapin ang pagmamahal namin dahil hindi mo kami kayang mahalin...at ang depensa mo... wala kang kayang tanggapin dahil wala kang kayang ibigay!" (sana tama itoh.. lol...) sorry! powerful... namove ako sa line niya... applause!! lol!
mwon pa.. sa Shark Tale! sbi ni Will Smith: "nobody can love a nobody!" at sabi nmn ni Renee Zellweger: "i did!" wla lng... may cotinuation p sna yan pwo nakalimutan ko... hehehehe... :P
sa Let The Love Begin nmn... "i love you eric", "i love you more pia"... wkekekeke...
ang tweet!!! hahahaha!! lol...
at sa Moments Of Love nmn... "Ang pagibig wlang nkikitang panahon, walang nkikitang wakas..." by Ms. Gloria Romero... o dba... wat u think?
ang cheesy ko ba?? no im not!! im not cheesy... is it my fault na puro love stories lng ang matinong panuorin ngaun??!! ha!!? hindi...xempre hindi.... lol! ang defensive ko.... hahahahaha...... pwo ang all-time-fave line ko sa movie eh yung... "a life without love is no life at all.." its by Da Vinci sa Ever After....
at para sa aking finale for this entry... ay sinabi ni Juday sa Till There Was You...
"hai... ang life... buti sna kung may love-life!" pasok sa banga...! whahahaha! bukas ulit... :P
dahil naniniwala ako na lht ng movies... mejo corny man, khit mejo outdated, mejo jologs, mejo ginaya sa theme ng ibng pelikula... may meaning prin! may ibng attack! khit ayaw ko ung mga artista... may meaning prin!! ang gustong-gisto ko ung mga powerful lines!!! ung mga linyang kukurot sa puso! ung tatatak sa isipan! ung khit na nasa CR ka pag narinig mo un... uurong lht ng pwedeng umurong! hahaha! pwo its true... its like magic... a big omnipotent force that would allow you to focus and catch every syllable, every word that you would hear... and automatically stick it in your brain and stay there... for as long as it has to!
this is one of the reasons why i want to weave beautiful stories... why someday i want my stories to be watched in big oversized theaters... by people of all ages and of all genders... and i want them to feel it... be moved by it.. rmmber it for as long as they live... I've decided on this one!! i would not stop weaving stories.... i know i have alot of them up my mind... but if my mind rans out... i would always have my heart though... No Problemo Amigo... haha... isang araw... mapapanood ko na ang mga storya ko sa BIG Screen... invited kayo ha!! ^_^ hehehe...
Di mataas ang pangarap ko... remmber... "the future belongs to those who dream..." :P
newei mabalik nga ako... knina pinanood ko ung movie ni Kristine at Jericho ung Forevermore... minemorize ko tong line na itoh eh... kristine:"ayaw mong tanggapin ang pagmamahal namin dahil hindi mo kami kayang mahalin...at ang depensa mo... wala kang kayang tanggapin dahil wala kang kayang ibigay!" (sana tama itoh.. lol...) sorry! powerful... namove ako sa line niya... applause!! lol!
mwon pa.. sa Shark Tale! sbi ni Will Smith: "nobody can love a nobody!" at sabi nmn ni Renee Zellweger: "i did!" wla lng... may cotinuation p sna yan pwo nakalimutan ko... hehehehe... :P
sa Let The Love Begin nmn... "i love you eric", "i love you more pia"... wkekekeke...
ang tweet!!! hahahaha!! lol...
at sa Moments Of Love nmn... "Ang pagibig wlang nkikitang panahon, walang nkikitang wakas..." by Ms. Gloria Romero... o dba... wat u think?
ang cheesy ko ba?? no im not!! im not cheesy... is it my fault na puro love stories lng ang matinong panuorin ngaun??!! ha!!? hindi...xempre hindi.... lol! ang defensive ko.... hahahahaha...... pwo ang all-time-fave line ko sa movie eh yung... "a life without love is no life at all.." its by Da Vinci sa Ever After....
at para sa aking finale for this entry... ay sinabi ni Juday sa Till There Was You...
"hai... ang life... buti sna kung may love-life!" pasok sa banga...! whahahaha! bukas ulit... :P
April 5, 2007
where the fuck is my hair anyway!!!!?
kgabi... habng nakikialam ako ng mga friendster ng mga friends ko sa friendster.... (ai ang daming frens!!!) may nkita akong isang account na tuluyang kumuha ng aking atensyon!! take note madaling araw itoh... iimagine mo na lng ang kawindangan na natamo ko...
kc its like this... papangalanin ko xang "si ateng long hair"... ok "si ateng long hair" di xa kgndahn... mas chubby pa xa sakin... mas morena, mas maraming "pimplets"...pwo take note... may jowa xa... ako wla!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! huhuhuhuhuhuhu!!!!!!!!! xempre nwindang ako... kc ang haba ng hair niya... di ko mareach!! lam mo un... feeling ko tuloy.., pinaglalaruan ako ng mundo!!! wwaahh!!!
(ayan ang mga napapala ng mga walang mgwa sa frenster..tsktsktsk!)
dnt get me wrong... im not saying na i want to be like her... /no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no!!!!!/ ok na ako sa pagkatao ko... satisfied na ako sa self ko... im happy for that girl... i have nothing against anything! but my thing is... bkit xa may jowa? ako... wala...? i min.. di nmn ako panget...khit papanu nmn may face ako... pwo bkit ganun? prng kc napagiiwanan na ako ng panahon... o sadyng malayo ang buhay ko sa pagibig...??? wat?
di nmn sa in-need na tlga ako ng jowa... kya ko pa nmn mgisa... nkaya ko nmn magisa eh... ang tagal2x ko ng single! actually snay na nga ako eh... but its just that sometimes... i cnt help not to ask why... kung bkit uso sa ibng tao ang love life at sakin hindi! kung bkit feeling ko nakalimutan ni cupido na ilagay ako sa listahn nia tuwing Valentines! kung sinu ba ang may mali? ako ba o ung mundo? ang puso ko ba o ang isip ko? is it because i think too much and not let fate run its course on me when it comes to love...? or is it because i have this unconventional way of loving and choosing who to love? is it my fault that im alone? or am i just one of the victims of the out-of-love syndrome? look... im not questioning Yahweh... coz noone has the right to... itong mga tanong na itoh ay para sakin... at akin lamang... o kya para sa mga gustong tumulong sagutin ang ilan sa mga tanong ko...
tinanong ko si Nhie2xQ... sabi ko sknia "nhie, unlovable ba ako?? ha???" ang sabi nmn nia "hindi nhie!!" sabi nia choosy daw ako... ang sbi ko nmn.. panu ako mgging choosy kung wala nmn ako pagpipilian!! dba? sabi rin nia kya cguwo may mga jowa ung mga katulad nila "ateng long hair" e kc... mabait sila... so inisp ko.. bka hindi ako mabait... o kya kulang pa ung kabaitan ko... pwo sabi nmn ni nhie... di nmn un ang ibg sabhin nia.. e anu ba tlga? psstt... help nmn oh...
khpon hbng nglalakd ako galing sa kusina namin... naisp ko na... "at this point in time... walang lamn ung puso ko..." so umupo ako sa dining chair nmin at hinalungkat ang puso ko... i was trying my best to find someone in there pwo wala eh... khit ung mga past kong minahal.. laht tulog sa puso ko... nghhybernate sila!!! para sa frenships,,, ai go! punong-puno...pwo pgdating sa someone special... empty... i even saw cobwebs hanging around my heart like tangled pieces of dead veins... it is currently beating for noone... ~sigh~
i wont deny... that sometimes when things get a bit too much...a bit more than i can handle... i somehow wish that someone would be here.. someone special... who would just be here for me... simply for me... and say... "eca, dnt worry...i wont go anywhere..."
you see, ryt now... i dnt know if im still happy being single... but im definitely not ready to have a boyfriend... i just need "someone"... that i can love in the end...
kc its like this... papangalanin ko xang "si ateng long hair"... ok "si ateng long hair" di xa kgndahn... mas chubby pa xa sakin... mas morena, mas maraming "pimplets"...pwo take note... may jowa xa... ako wla!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! huhuhuhuhuhuhu!!!!!!!!! xempre nwindang ako... kc ang haba ng hair niya... di ko mareach!! lam mo un... feeling ko tuloy.., pinaglalaruan ako ng mundo!!! wwaahh!!!
(ayan ang mga napapala ng mga walang mgwa sa frenster..tsktsktsk!)
dnt get me wrong... im not saying na i want to be like her... /no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no,no!!!!!/ ok na ako sa pagkatao ko... satisfied na ako sa self ko... im happy for that girl... i have nothing against anything! but my thing is... bkit xa may jowa? ako... wala...? i min.. di nmn ako panget...khit papanu nmn may face ako... pwo bkit ganun? prng kc napagiiwanan na ako ng panahon... o sadyng malayo ang buhay ko sa pagibig...??? wat?
di nmn sa in-need na tlga ako ng jowa... kya ko pa nmn mgisa... nkaya ko nmn magisa eh... ang tagal2x ko ng single! actually snay na nga ako eh... but its just that sometimes... i cnt help not to ask why... kung bkit uso sa ibng tao ang love life at sakin hindi! kung bkit feeling ko nakalimutan ni cupido na ilagay ako sa listahn nia tuwing Valentines! kung sinu ba ang may mali? ako ba o ung mundo? ang puso ko ba o ang isip ko? is it because i think too much and not let fate run its course on me when it comes to love...? or is it because i have this unconventional way of loving and choosing who to love? is it my fault that im alone? or am i just one of the victims of the out-of-love syndrome? look... im not questioning Yahweh... coz noone has the right to... itong mga tanong na itoh ay para sakin... at akin lamang... o kya para sa mga gustong tumulong sagutin ang ilan sa mga tanong ko...
tinanong ko si Nhie2xQ... sabi ko sknia "nhie, unlovable ba ako?? ha???" ang sabi nmn nia "hindi nhie!!" sabi nia choosy daw ako... ang sbi ko nmn.. panu ako mgging choosy kung wala nmn ako pagpipilian!! dba? sabi rin nia kya cguwo may mga jowa ung mga katulad nila "ateng long hair" e kc... mabait sila... so inisp ko.. bka hindi ako mabait... o kya kulang pa ung kabaitan ko... pwo sabi nmn ni nhie... di nmn un ang ibg sabhin nia.. e anu ba tlga? psstt... help nmn oh...
khpon hbng nglalakd ako galing sa kusina namin... naisp ko na... "at this point in time... walang lamn ung puso ko..." so umupo ako sa dining chair nmin at hinalungkat ang puso ko... i was trying my best to find someone in there pwo wala eh... khit ung mga past kong minahal.. laht tulog sa puso ko... nghhybernate sila!!! para sa frenships,,, ai go! punong-puno...pwo pgdating sa someone special... empty... i even saw cobwebs hanging around my heart like tangled pieces of dead veins... it is currently beating for noone... ~sigh~
i wont deny... that sometimes when things get a bit too much...a bit more than i can handle... i somehow wish that someone would be here.. someone special... who would just be here for me... simply for me... and say... "eca, dnt worry...i wont go anywhere..."
you see, ryt now... i dnt know if im still happy being single... but im definitely not ready to have a boyfriend... i just need "someone"... that i can love in the end...
thinking things through...
WRITING A BLOG!!! writing here makes me share my life to everyone...
its feels good to know that hndi ko sinasarili ang buhay ko!!! na
nararansan ko rin ang mga nraransan ng iba.. na im being transparent
not only to myself but to the whole internet-literate community
worldwide... what a vast dominion for a single voice!!!
newei..knina sa panaginip ko... nakabuo ako ng isang paragraph para sa
entry na itoh... pwo di ko matandaan....sayng!
newei...ito ung una kong thought...here it goes...
alam nio im the type of person na pag ayaw kitang kauspin... di tlga
kita kakausapin, hinding-hindi ako magaaksaya ng laway ko para sau...
and that the least thing that i would do for you is tell you that i dnt wnt to talk to you... just that simple and transparent!! pero sana kung may taong ayaw rin akong kausp sbhn rin sakin ng mabuti... hndi ung aarte pa ng kung anu2x...e kulang na lng e sabhing nanghihingalo na xa at hindi na xa maaaring kauspin!! duh!! hello... hndi nmn ako tanga pra hndi malamn ung change ng mood at voice db? duh!! super duh!!! kakainis lng... kala nmn kc kung sinung super importnt person eh... xa na nga ung ineeffortan, xa pa ung INDIFFERENT!!!!!! anu twag dun? dba
inconsiderate? INCONSIDERATE!!!!! dba? dba? dba? kakainis... parang
ang hopeless2x n tlga eh... masahol pa skin na may ID... jusko... nwawalan na ako ng layaw... prng i want to erase that person's existence in my life once and for all na!! para.. tapos2x na!! pakibura nga po ung pahina ng buhay ko na present xa!!! pweeess! kc pagod n nmn ako... pagod na pagod n nmn... pra rin kc, feeling ko ngwa ko n lht ng maaari kong gwin, and i have nothing more to give... nothing more...end of the line...
nakakatawa kc heto n nmn ako... nndito n nmn ako sa posisyon na
gnito... bkit nga ba? sabi nga ni jill kay alwyn sa Flordeluna: "bkit
pa ba ako ngpapaapekto sau, e wala ka namang silbi sa buhay ko?!!!" ang sarap sbhin noh...? ang srap isigaw... kya please lng... end my misery and tell me face-to-face that im the worst friend anyone can have and that im hopeless and that you wont be needing me in any way anymore...and tell me to go... para masabi ko na yang linyang yan... and the spotlight would be on me.
sa pasukan... you wont see me as frequent as before... o! bonus na yan
ha... ayoko na... pwo sna kya kitang tiisin... sna kya kitang
talikuran... ktulad ng gnwa mo... at ung galit ko sau...? just wait and see... i'll be ending it soon... not for you but for me... im sick and tired of you being indifferent, cold, insensitive, inconsiderate... i can only suffer much...
ayan,,, nailabas ko na ang panibago kong sama ng loob... this is what i really feel at this moment... di mn ito ang mrmdmn ko mmya... maaari
itong magbago.. but the bottom line is narmdamn ko itoh unfortunately...
gusto lng nmn na makausap ka... tska may ishashare lng nmn ako n
problem ko eh... kc dba sabi mo... "if u nid sam1 to tok to, i wud be
hir.." sabi ko na nga ba... hindi totoo ung mga isinulat mo eh... :(
its feels good to know that hndi ko sinasarili ang buhay ko!!! na
nararansan ko rin ang mga nraransan ng iba.. na im being transparent
not only to myself but to the whole internet-literate community
worldwide... what a vast dominion for a single voice!!!
newei..knina sa panaginip ko... nakabuo ako ng isang paragraph para sa
entry na itoh... pwo di ko matandaan....sayng!
newei...ito ung una kong thought...here it goes...
alam nio im the type of person na pag ayaw kitang kauspin... di tlga
kita kakausapin, hinding-hindi ako magaaksaya ng laway ko para sau...
and that the least thing that i would do for you is tell you that i dnt wnt to talk to you... just that simple and transparent!! pero sana kung may taong ayaw rin akong kausp sbhn rin sakin ng mabuti... hndi ung aarte pa ng kung anu2x...e kulang na lng e sabhing nanghihingalo na xa at hindi na xa maaaring kauspin!! duh!! hello... hndi nmn ako tanga pra hndi malamn ung change ng mood at voice db? duh!! super duh!!! kakainis lng... kala nmn kc kung sinung super importnt person eh... xa na nga ung ineeffortan, xa pa ung INDIFFERENT!!!!!! anu twag dun? dba
inconsiderate? INCONSIDERATE!!!!! dba? dba? dba? kakainis... parang
ang hopeless2x n tlga eh... masahol pa skin na may ID... jusko... nwawalan na ako ng layaw... prng i want to erase that person's existence in my life once and for all na!! para.. tapos2x na!! pakibura nga po ung pahina ng buhay ko na present xa!!! pweeess! kc pagod n nmn ako... pagod na pagod n nmn... pra rin kc, feeling ko ngwa ko n lht ng maaari kong gwin, and i have nothing more to give... nothing more...end of the line...
nakakatawa kc heto n nmn ako... nndito n nmn ako sa posisyon na
gnito... bkit nga ba? sabi nga ni jill kay alwyn sa Flordeluna: "bkit
pa ba ako ngpapaapekto sau, e wala ka namang silbi sa buhay ko?!!!" ang sarap sbhin noh...? ang srap isigaw... kya please lng... end my misery and tell me face-to-face that im the worst friend anyone can have and that im hopeless and that you wont be needing me in any way anymore...and tell me to go... para masabi ko na yang linyang yan... and the spotlight would be on me.
sa pasukan... you wont see me as frequent as before... o! bonus na yan
ha... ayoko na... pwo sna kya kitang tiisin... sna kya kitang
talikuran... ktulad ng gnwa mo... at ung galit ko sau...? just wait and see... i'll be ending it soon... not for you but for me... im sick and tired of you being indifferent, cold, insensitive, inconsiderate... i can only suffer much...
ayan,,, nailabas ko na ang panibago kong sama ng loob... this is what i really feel at this moment... di mn ito ang mrmdmn ko mmya... maaari
itong magbago.. but the bottom line is narmdamn ko itoh unfortunately...
gusto lng nmn na makausap ka... tska may ishashare lng nmn ako n
problem ko eh... kc dba sabi mo... "if u nid sam1 to tok to, i wud be
hir.." sabi ko na nga ba... hindi totoo ung mga isinulat mo eh... :(
ABMYTMPLAKO? hahaha..anu daw? praises for Bob Ong!!
natutunan ko sa isang librong pinamagatang "ABNKKBSNPLAKO" ni Bob Ong...
pag feeling mo napagiiwanan k n ng buong mundo.. dahil sa lht ng kaplpakan na ngwa mo... o di kya dahil sa lht ng kamalsan at sakit na nrmdmn mo..., isa lang ang solusyon... tumayo ka... pwo wag mo habulin ang mundo... dahan2x ka muna... unti2x mong itama lht... unti2x mong ausin ang lht ng mali... at isang arw mkikita mo na unti2x nang umiikot ulit ang mundo... at ksma kna namn...
yan ang gngwa ko... unti2x kong inaayos ang mga gusot na at puro bakas ng pamburang bahagi ng buhay ko...
si Bob Ong na ang isa sa pinaka-favorite kong author!!! ever!!
ito muna for now... di ko pa kc naoorganize mind ko kung nu ba tlga ang uunahin kong sulatin... madami kc ang nsa utak ko ngaun eh... ang dami2x... mmyang umaga pagkagising... gagwa ako... taz ipopost ko sa madling arw...dhil la na ako net card... kailngn mgtipid... hehehe...
knina hbng ngffrenster ako... may nkita ako... kakashock..!! isa itoh sa mga bagay sa buhay na hindi ko mbgyan ng karampatang explanation... kakawindang... bukas.... mababasa nio na... salmat sa mga bumisita sa blog ko... wag kayo snang magsawa bumisita dto... mgrecruit nrn po kayo ng ibng tao para basahin ang blog ko... (ang kapal noh? lol..)
blogging makes.... (tom na yan...)
unexplainable.... (tom ulit yan...)
blah...blah...blah....
pag feeling mo napagiiwanan k n ng buong mundo.. dahil sa lht ng kaplpakan na ngwa mo... o di kya dahil sa lht ng kamalsan at sakit na nrmdmn mo..., isa lang ang solusyon... tumayo ka... pwo wag mo habulin ang mundo... dahan2x ka muna... unti2x mong itama lht... unti2x mong ausin ang lht ng mali... at isang arw mkikita mo na unti2x nang umiikot ulit ang mundo... at ksma kna namn...
yan ang gngwa ko... unti2x kong inaayos ang mga gusot na at puro bakas ng pamburang bahagi ng buhay ko...
si Bob Ong na ang isa sa pinaka-favorite kong author!!! ever!!
ito muna for now... di ko pa kc naoorganize mind ko kung nu ba tlga ang uunahin kong sulatin... madami kc ang nsa utak ko ngaun eh... ang dami2x... mmyang umaga pagkagising... gagwa ako... taz ipopost ko sa madling arw...dhil la na ako net card... kailngn mgtipid... hehehe...
knina hbng ngffrenster ako... may nkita ako... kakashock..!! isa itoh sa mga bagay sa buhay na hindi ko mbgyan ng karampatang explanation... kakawindang... bukas.... mababasa nio na... salmat sa mga bumisita sa blog ko... wag kayo snang magsawa bumisita dto... mgrecruit nrn po kayo ng ibng tao para basahin ang blog ko... (ang kapal noh? lol..)
blogging makes.... (tom na yan...)
unexplainable.... (tom ulit yan...)
blah...blah...blah....
April 3, 2007
filling the holes....
im much better na... nakatulog na me ng matagal-tagal... ^_^ mga 12 hours... wkekekekekekeke!!!
i went to cavite... xempre with elite!!!^_^
haha,,, kakaaliw kc everytime na umaalis kmi, para kaming nasa isang reality show... kc before mkapunta kmi sa destination marami png ngyayari..!! nilakad namin ung tabi ng high-way sa may pasay dhil nndun ung sakayan ng bus!! my gesh! ang init! nakashorts pa ako.. si fred nga naglabas na ng towel! haha!
nung naisipn nmin sumakay n lng ng taxi... ang hinayupak na driver sinisingil kmi ng aabot sa 350pesos! e utot nyah!! kya bumaba kami... taz nghntay na lng kmi ng bus...
bumaba kmi ng SM Bacoor... dhl doon kmi susunduin ni elden... at dhil old habits never die... pmnta kmi ng Watsons at kumuha kmi ni fred ng tester ng sunblock.. hehehe... mainit kc eh.. tska tester nmn un eh kya free un....
hehehe... tpos bumaba kmi ng foodcourt...doon na namin nkita si elden na naka-shades... ^_^
we went to her house after that and stayed there for lunch and a couple of hours more... then at three we went to Kawit Cavite... kc dun ung resort na tutuluyan namin...ito ung cherry's pavillion!
the place was big enough for us...tatlong malalaking pool, dami nga lng tao nung hapon pa... mga shungagets!! tska kasma ung sister at baby cousin ni elden kaya di kmi agad nakastart... picture2x na lng kmi,, yosi at baraha....
nung umuwi na ung mga chikiting... un na!! bingo!!! we are free!!!! ngluto kmi ng barbeque na konti lng ang gas kya ang tagal nagkaroon ng baga ung uling..!! hahahaha!!! kmi nmn ni kim... ngbabaraha...nagkkwentuhan sabay yosi!! wat a life!!?
pagkaluto ng matigas pwo malinamnam na barbeque..kumain na kmi... konti lng kinain ko... pwo si sey... ndi!! as usual! lol!!! after that... ngswimming na kmi... pwo si kimmy naiwn sa cottage.... dahil sa hair nia... dnt ask!!
ang saya2x... ngslide kmi... nung unang slide ko... tuloy2x ako hanggang ilalim ng tubig!! muntik na ako malunod hinatak na lng ako ni fred.. hahaha!!! ang haharot namin!!! mga lakas trip!!! si guillan ang haba ng hair nia sa tubig, si fred naman... prang porcupine!! lol!!! nasipa ko nga mukha ni sey eh.... inasar nia kc ako eh... face shot tuloy!! lol!!! si den nmn...dun lng kasama si masaru na may salbabida kc di xa marunong lumangoy... lol!!! ang saya!!!
12am na nsa pool parin kmi... overyt kmi dun eh... ^_^ o dba overnyt stay? sosyal! well.. yan ang barkada... sama2x khit walang tulog!! ang ingay ko sa pool... kumakanta ako... taz sumabay narin sakin si fred, kya ngkaroon ng libreng radio sa may pool!!
ako ung unang uminom ng GSM Blue... ako lng ang tumatagay!!! biro nio!! nung dumating na sila fred galing banlaw... ayan na... may kasma na ako uminom...
pwo actually.. kmi nga lang ni guillan ung uminom eh... one on one kmi... lol!! taz ang dada na namin... puro kwento!! wlang saysay!! pwo masyang kwentuhan prin ng mga magkakaibigan... eh ako nmn... naglabas ng sama ng loob... and in that moment lalo ko nafeel ung galit... lol!!
we went home at 4am... at habang nasa bus ako... ang layo ng tingin ko... lumipad na nmn ug utak ko... pmnta xa sa moon..
pagkapasok sa room ni den diretso ako sa kama! and seconds after nkitext ako... knockout agad... nagising ako ng 6:30am...taz pumikit ako ulit kc pinipilit ko i-continue ung panaginip ko... pwo wala eh.. lalo lang akong nainitan!! kaya aun... nagising na ako... at nagising na rin sila!! ang ingay ko kc!! hehehehehehe!!!!!!!!!!!!
umalis kmi sa house ni elden ng 12noon...arrived at my house with kimmy by 2pm.... slept at 10pm... woke up this morning at 10am...
see? what a day... what a trip!!! being with friends that matters to you... laughing at their corny jokes, making a fool out of each other, free to be yourself... it is fun...to have fun!! especially when you have your happiness around... ^_^ at lalo pang gumanda kc... di ako umitim kc gabi kmi naligo sa pool!!! yahoo!!!!!!!!
i cant remmber kung pang-ilan ng lakad itoh ng elite... ang dami na tlga kc... msan konti lng kmi... mnsan di ako kasama... mnsan sila lang... pwo khit ganun... khit mkhng di kmi makumpleto... walang kaso... masaya prin... kc baliktarin mo man ang mundo... khit dlawa lng kmi ni kimmy... elite xa, elite ako... magkasma kmi...kya para naring kasama ung iba... ^_^
sa mga susunod na trip ng elite this summer... sa birthday ni darla itong month at nila guily at den sa may... ^_^ sna muli ko n namang marinig ang halakhak ni fred at arjhaye, maaaliw sa pagaaway ni guillan at sey... tatawa sa lokohan namn ni kimmy... maramdaman ang sweetness at lambing ni den at darla... bibilib sa mga hirit ni kael... yayakapin ulit ang anak kong si aiko... aabangan ang mga kalokohan ni bibey... mageenjoy sa company ng mga bagong elite... sila jm, hazel, gem, masaru, jayson at minggay... at hopefully ang feeling n maksama ulit ang kapatid kong si elias...
i really love the people i've mentioned ... thank you for filling my incomplete life... muah.... sa uulitin.... *wink*
i went to cavite... xempre with elite!!!^_^
haha,,, kakaaliw kc everytime na umaalis kmi, para kaming nasa isang reality show... kc before mkapunta kmi sa destination marami png ngyayari..!! nilakad namin ung tabi ng high-way sa may pasay dhil nndun ung sakayan ng bus!! my gesh! ang init! nakashorts pa ako.. si fred nga naglabas na ng towel! haha!
nung naisipn nmin sumakay n lng ng taxi... ang hinayupak na driver sinisingil kmi ng aabot sa 350pesos! e utot nyah!! kya bumaba kami... taz nghntay na lng kmi ng bus...
bumaba kmi ng SM Bacoor... dhl doon kmi susunduin ni elden... at dhil old habits never die... pmnta kmi ng Watsons at kumuha kmi ni fred ng tester ng sunblock.. hehehe... mainit kc eh.. tska tester nmn un eh kya free un....
hehehe... tpos bumaba kmi ng foodcourt...doon na namin nkita si elden na naka-shades... ^_^
we went to her house after that and stayed there for lunch and a couple of hours more... then at three we went to Kawit Cavite... kc dun ung resort na tutuluyan namin...ito ung cherry's pavillion!
the place was big enough for us...tatlong malalaking pool, dami nga lng tao nung hapon pa... mga shungagets!! tska kasma ung sister at baby cousin ni elden kaya di kmi agad nakastart... picture2x na lng kmi,, yosi at baraha....
nung umuwi na ung mga chikiting... un na!! bingo!!! we are free!!!! ngluto kmi ng barbeque na konti lng ang gas kya ang tagal nagkaroon ng baga ung uling..!! hahahaha!!! kmi nmn ni kim... ngbabaraha...nagkkwentuhan sabay yosi!! wat a life!!?
pagkaluto ng matigas pwo malinamnam na barbeque..kumain na kmi... konti lng kinain ko... pwo si sey... ndi!! as usual! lol!!! after that... ngswimming na kmi... pwo si kimmy naiwn sa cottage.... dahil sa hair nia... dnt ask!!
ang saya2x... ngslide kmi... nung unang slide ko... tuloy2x ako hanggang ilalim ng tubig!! muntik na ako malunod hinatak na lng ako ni fred.. hahaha!!! ang haharot namin!!! mga lakas trip!!! si guillan ang haba ng hair nia sa tubig, si fred naman... prang porcupine!! lol!!! nasipa ko nga mukha ni sey eh.... inasar nia kc ako eh... face shot tuloy!! lol!!! si den nmn...dun lng kasama si masaru na may salbabida kc di xa marunong lumangoy... lol!!! ang saya!!!
12am na nsa pool parin kmi... overyt kmi dun eh... ^_^ o dba overnyt stay? sosyal! well.. yan ang barkada... sama2x khit walang tulog!! ang ingay ko sa pool... kumakanta ako... taz sumabay narin sakin si fred, kya ngkaroon ng libreng radio sa may pool!!
ako ung unang uminom ng GSM Blue... ako lng ang tumatagay!!! biro nio!! nung dumating na sila fred galing banlaw... ayan na... may kasma na ako uminom...
pwo actually.. kmi nga lang ni guillan ung uminom eh... one on one kmi... lol!! taz ang dada na namin... puro kwento!! wlang saysay!! pwo masyang kwentuhan prin ng mga magkakaibigan... eh ako nmn... naglabas ng sama ng loob... and in that moment lalo ko nafeel ung galit... lol!!
we went home at 4am... at habang nasa bus ako... ang layo ng tingin ko... lumipad na nmn ug utak ko... pmnta xa sa moon..
pagkapasok sa room ni den diretso ako sa kama! and seconds after nkitext ako... knockout agad... nagising ako ng 6:30am...taz pumikit ako ulit kc pinipilit ko i-continue ung panaginip ko... pwo wala eh.. lalo lang akong nainitan!! kaya aun... nagising na ako... at nagising na rin sila!! ang ingay ko kc!! hehehehehehe!!!!!!!!!!!!
umalis kmi sa house ni elden ng 12noon...arrived at my house with kimmy by 2pm.... slept at 10pm... woke up this morning at 10am...
see? what a day... what a trip!!! being with friends that matters to you... laughing at their corny jokes, making a fool out of each other, free to be yourself... it is fun...to have fun!! especially when you have your happiness around... ^_^ at lalo pang gumanda kc... di ako umitim kc gabi kmi naligo sa pool!!! yahoo!!!!!!!!
i cant remmber kung pang-ilan ng lakad itoh ng elite... ang dami na tlga kc... msan konti lng kmi... mnsan di ako kasama... mnsan sila lang... pwo khit ganun... khit mkhng di kmi makumpleto... walang kaso... masaya prin... kc baliktarin mo man ang mundo... khit dlawa lng kmi ni kimmy... elite xa, elite ako... magkasma kmi...kya para naring kasama ung iba... ^_^
sa mga susunod na trip ng elite this summer... sa birthday ni darla itong month at nila guily at den sa may... ^_^ sna muli ko n namang marinig ang halakhak ni fred at arjhaye, maaaliw sa pagaaway ni guillan at sey... tatawa sa lokohan namn ni kimmy... maramdaman ang sweetness at lambing ni den at darla... bibilib sa mga hirit ni kael... yayakapin ulit ang anak kong si aiko... aabangan ang mga kalokohan ni bibey... mageenjoy sa company ng mga bagong elite... sila jm, hazel, gem, masaru, jayson at minggay... at hopefully ang feeling n maksama ulit ang kapatid kong si elias...
i really love the people i've mentioned ... thank you for filling my incomplete life... muah.... sa uulitin.... *wink*
April 2, 2007
need to slumber.....
ei... mmya na ulit gabi... meme muna ako... 3 hours plng tulog ko eh.... hahahaha...
April 1, 2007
guilty beyond unreasonable doubt...
i've been stalling!!!!! give me my verdict!!!
ive been meaning to write another entry yesterday but...i ran out of time?? actually... an entry or two should satisfyingly empty my bloated mind... but i just ran out of time... i priomise... tomorrow... when i return from cavite... i will and shall indulge you again twinkle, by your editor's prowess.... (prowess tlga? lakas...)
meanwhile... dito ka muna.... maliligo na ako... aalis na kmi...
cavite here we come.... and tomorrow i shall deal with you again...
muah!
take care...
love yah...
xoxo...
ive been meaning to write another entry yesterday but...i ran out of time?? actually... an entry or two should satisfyingly empty my bloated mind... but i just ran out of time... i priomise... tomorrow... when i return from cavite... i will and shall indulge you again twinkle, by your editor's prowess.... (prowess tlga? lakas...)
meanwhile... dito ka muna.... maliligo na ako... aalis na kmi...
cavite here we come.... and tomorrow i shall deal with you again...
muah!
take care...
love yah...
xoxo...
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