Voices

We can't hide sadness no matter how hard we try.


Angelica was walking half-way down the street where she parked her car the night before. She looked up and saw the impending rain, who was about to burst and again flood the streets with sadness and frustration. Drowning in her own thoughts she suddenly heard a young man, probably in his early twenties told her something weird.

the stranger said, "and lungkot nmn..."


She looked up and saw the man looking straight at her. Seeing him looking concern and harmless at the same time, she didn't mind him. She proceeded walking. But within her, the voices just wont stop talking, obviously she did mind what he said.


"ang lungkot nmn... ang lungkot nmn..." the voice of the stranger echoed endlessly.

"napansin nia na malungkot ako? mkha ba tlga akong malungkot? malungkot ba tlga ako?
ayoko mging malungkot... hndi dapt ako maging malungkot... this is my choice.... mine and mine alone... dont tell me hindi ko npaninindigan pangako ko, dont tell me kakainin ko sinabi ko...hindi..."

"anu ba tlga gusto mong gwin angelica?" Another voice said.

"gusto ko lng nmn maging masya, maging masaya khit wala na xa... i want my old life back... living without him... laughing not because of him... being happy not just by his existence... i want to learn... how to live like i used to...un lng..."

"un ba tlga ang gusto mo?" A familiar voice asked.

"hindi ko alam... hindi ko alam...cguro!"

"paano kung di tlga yan ang gusto mo?" The same voice asked again.

"bhla na... e di gugustuhin ko na lng...wla na akong magagwa pa...dhil gnwa ko n ang lht."


She unconsciously pulled out her key and slid it through the hole, pulled the door as she entered her car in a daze. she began to pull back her own thoughts and organize it.

"im better off this way! i cant afford to stay like that forever! Angelica, you have to go!" She shouted.

Her voice filled her car momentarily while it subsided to pure silence. She brushed her hair with her fingers while she started the engine as she sped away with her heart still beating but with a hole where he used to reside.

And as she finally said goodbye to Joshua, one thing is for sure... she will find happiness... once again... one of these days.


Sa laht ng tumangkilik ng storya ni Angelica... dito na po muna mgttapos ang kwento niya... hangga't di pa ako nakakaisip kung panu ito ipgpapatuloy... hehehehehe... babalik po si Angel... panagako!!