stranded heart

Angelica was surfing through the channels when all of sudden she stopped by Cube TV.. it was playing the music video of Alipin... she suddenly became sullen and put her head down on the table and felt the pain she thought was not there.., she remembered her dream the night before...

in the dream:
Angelica overheard Joshua and Richard talking.

Richard: kayo na daw sabi nga niya..

Joshua: *silence*

Angelica: ei may girlfriend kna? im happy for you!

would she be really happy if in reality Joshua will find someone new, would she be strong enough to face it?, Angelica thought.
she kept her head down while letting the pain into her system. the song still playing in the background fueling her emotions.. prolonging the moment... cradling her agony. she misses him and she knows that. she wants to be brave or try to act like one. she wants to forget him. she wants him out her life. she wants to start anew; with or without him it doesn't matter! she has to move on.

Angelica allowed the song to end, after which she got up from her seat, carried her dishes to the sink. made a joke out of the roasted chicken her mom is cooking and made her way to her room. took a pen and a paper and wrote:

i can do this.
i will do this.
i have to.
have to save myself.
must kill the pain.
must not go back.
must throw him out my heart.
its been too long.
i have to live,
like i did once before.
have no choice,
but to say goodbye.
for the last time.
for good.

Angelica clung on to the paper as if for dear life. she has to stop loving him.
she knew that, as tears rolled down her sober face.


enjoyed reading it? i enjoyed writing it too... hehe... who is angelica? she is my latest fictional character. through this short written episodes i shall bring her to life.
tahtah...