Recon???

opo... tama po ang nabsa mo sa naunang entry ko knina... "sabi namn skin ni elias..." elias...

yah.. sa mga constant readers ko.. at mga frenships ko... cguwo iniisp nio kung ok na kmi... kc obviously we had a conversation dba? well... im thinking of not disclosing everything here kc may makakabasa... duh? to think na blog ko itoh noh... and ang lakas ng loob ko na mgname ng names in the past...

uhmm... damn... parng ang chicken ko na!! humpf!! cge na nga! mgsasalita na ako... ^_^

if truth be told... after i posted my entry last april 5, entitled thinking things through... ngsawa na tlga ako... un ung last straw... two weeks passed then he called me up asking for my help...to find a certain number... we talked and laughed like we used too... its as if nothing happen... nothing ever happened... pati ako na-amaze eh, inisip ko... panu ngyari un? hahaha... and i was bewildered after that phone call... xmpre as a good person, hinanap ko ung number... and since nagpapahinga ung mga satellite ko... nahirapn akong hnpn ung owner ng number... i called him up after a few days telling him na di ko mhnp... twanan ulit... kwento... di katuld nung dati pag nguusap kmi... noong ang gulo2x pa... actually... msaya ako kc khit papanu... it went well in the end... at alam ko na...si Yahweh ang may gawa nito...

the next night... ngkasundo kmi ng mgkita sa Shang.. ksama ko si fred at sey... i waited for one hour... ni anino ni elias... di ko nkita... but when i was waiting there alone... i knew he would come... khit na lowbat na ung two phones nia... at di ko xa macontact... still i knew na darating xa... i found out na late xa ininterview... kya late xa nkpunta... nangaway pa xa guard sa Shang...
i dunno... khit mtgl na kmi di nguusp...at dumating sa punto na di ko na xa kilala... na yaw ko na xa makilala... na sobra na ung mga nyari sa amin... still... sitting there alone in Shang, half scared and half worried... narealize ko na i still have faith in him... na he would come...come what may...like before...

nung sat ng gabi... umalis ako,si kim,fred,sey at xa... pnta kmi g8way... nag ukay2x, then uminom kmi ng coffee sa starbucks... it was then when i saw him laughing again... at hndi ako natawa dhil sa rason kung bkit xa tumatawa, tumawa ako dhil nkita ko xang tumatawa...well it has been a long time...6 months...

ok... itoh na ang mga present views ko sa mga ngyari...

im happy kc for no reason... prng out of the blue... ngprmdm ulit si mart... pati kela kimmy... ngttxt na xa ulit... hndi ko na mkita ung barrier na naktayo sa gitna namin dati...sa gitna nia at elite... di ko nrin mrmdmn ulit ung coldness between us... ung coldness na nakakapatay... he is warm again... anu kaya nakain nia...? i wnt to know... naumpog kya..? sana nahalata nia kung ganu namin xa namiss, kung gano kami enjoy ksma xa... kung gano kmi ngcacare...even though we are different...!

masaya rin ako kc... God took away more than half of my pains, before ngprmdm ulit si mart... kc kung hndi.. nku... Goodluck... sbi ng isang fren ko... i wont name that person na lng... sabi nia... "may kulng prin xa kc di prin nia narerealize lht ng gnawa niang mali..."... ang akin nmn... i know we still have alot to talk about... i just dont know when, how and where to start... but we still have to talk... now pa na di ko n mhnp ung more than half of my anger... kya mas peaceful na ako ngaun... hahaha! spoiled prin sakin si mart... pwo yayo ko ulit xa... joke! hahaha!

before i sleep... i wnt to add something... i am not where i used to stand... things are not the same... and i know that... i lost something very importnt... and i dnt know if i can still get it back... but this is for sure...once na mawala ung essence ng friendship... mahirap na...