stranger in my midst...

today is monday... the 12th day of the 3rd month of the year...
at ilang arw nalng LTS na!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yahoo... ^_^ but i still hve some crossroads to pass through before friday so... with cross-fingers i'll try passing through these with caution... ^_^

newei... lets talk bout being a stranger... its very hard to be a lone strnger in a plce... especially when they look at u as if u're not welcome...
but how does it feel to act like a stranger to someone you used to know so well? and act as if nothing ever transpired between the two of you... and engage in a conversation that might have actually fooled anyone that u dont really know each other...
you'll start with "hey... you look familiar... have we met before..?" and the rest is history.. haha..

you might think that ive lost my wits... conjuring a thought like this..
but... i have this fair insight... kinda hard for me to put it into words...
but let me try...

you see... wen you actually lost a fren.. abruptly or slowly... violently or casually... (it really doesnt matter how)... the bridge between the two you will suddenly collapse. ppooff! not necessarily masira lht agd but hndi na ito buo...
magdedepnde rin ang wreckage sa kung anu ang ngyri... mas msakit mas grabe...

so lets go for the worst scenario... ung total wreckage because of the impudent after shocks... (gnwang earthquake!! lol!)
ung tipong... di kau evr mn ngkakilala!! taz ung tipong...la na tlga ung connection... kung baga sa celphone... la ng bat, la na load at na-erase pa ung number!!! kabboom!! tragic!!!

so aun nga... para mkgpusap ulit kau, (dhil gusto nio prin nmn kauspin ang isa't-isa khit papanu... dhil u miss talking to each other rin...) na hndi nio kailangn pgusapn ung mga ngyari... at dhil sa turingan nio na ay msahol pa sa strangers... e act as if di nga tlga kau ngkakilala... para khit sa ganun... marmdmn nio ung presence ng isa't-isa ulit khit sglit lng... at least sa conversation naun... u can talk nething under the sun... bsta make sure na lang sisira ng mundo nio.. haha!! kumbaga sa comm theory pa e ito ung CMM o MMC.. ai ewan nakalimtn ko... hahaha...basta un na un!
nwei... so ganun nga... u can feel each other's presnce for a mean time and then deicide in the end if you want to continue acting that way...start acting the way u used to... or let that experience be a memory na lng... that will depend sa mrrmdamn ninyo... but u can break the illusion midway and talk things over... discuss the past.. it will be a bit risky,a little bit painful, a little bit nerve-racking but if its really meant to happen... heck, it will!!

pwo lm nio kung nu pkmhrp sa snsbi ko... ang pnkmhrp ay ung kayanin mong magpanggap na hndi mo nrrmdmn ung sakit hbng kausp xa... ouch noh?? yah...


u see... i dnt know if this insight of mine will work for me... haha... ewan ko... one part of me yearns to find a way to mend the broken bridge... to rebuild it to its glorious past... maybe i shall try or maybe not...

i really dont know yet... i have yet to know...
when that day comes...
when that day comes...