was i out of my mind? why did i do that?

before i write anything here pa... i just want to get one thing straight... i meant wat i wrote in the message... one part of me really felt that way ... that i was so sorry... at nang nbsa ko un... hndi ko kayang hndi mgreact bout it..

but the question for non other than me is: why the hell did i do that?!! was my empathic ability stronger than my pathetic side?!!! was the brief moment of kindness enough for me to reach out again? have i lost my wits!!!? thinking that i was the one who reached out again!?!!! now what will hapen... i dont how i feel, coz i dnt know why i did that... and i dont know wat to feel...

i just felt sorry for him... i was sincerely taken aback by the shoutout... i mean khit sinu pa un mgsulat ng ganun at malmn mo na ganun ang nrrmdmn nia... ay msasaktan ako pra sknia... oo...khit ikaw... khit ikaw... cguwo lalo kna... i nver wanted to see you this way... that was one the reason why i held on for a long time... i thought you were happy... i told u to be happy remmber? but why arent you happy? i thought you have found someone better,,, ung dahiln kung bkit hndi kna bumalik... them who would be more real? i remmber you wrote something bout real if im not mistaken... but i nver thought that your feelings would become so unbearable that you've opted to post something like that... its sounds like an add... that is not the right way to find real... and you seem a little impatient in finding one... i thought you'll be patient enought to wait...

i realized after reading your shoutout that... im lucky coz i still have my friends... and my best friend... and i was smhow reminded bout was i said na "pag lumagapak ka... pupulutin nmn kita eh... wat are frens for?" ive always wanted to be there for you in the past... but things really changed drastically... i know i told you not to talk to me anymore... thank you kc hndi mo nga ako kinausp...

please try to be happy... please...

"at kaya mo yan... wag kang susuko... wag mo sila isipn... nndito lng ako..."





when the right time comes na we can talk to each other na...

sna mkta ko prin ung nging kaibgn ko...

mkta ko ulit ung taong nkilala ko...


- the good side of me...